
Originally Posted by
TheZagPhish
Thanks, guys.
Timing is a funny thing.
Our daughter just finished up at Western; we're headed over to B'ham next weekend to see her graduate. It's the end of a long, challenging arc for her -- and the end of large, challenging payments for us! That massive change opened up space for other changes.
Mrs. Phish just left her job in October after 32 years, mostly on account of stress attached to her position triggering seizures left and right (Mrs. Phish has very serious epilepsy). Once she was out we could, at last, earnestly seek better solutions - lasting solutions - for her. We are going up that road now and it looks like she is a good candidate for brain surgery. Long term monitoring is scheduled for March and we go from there. 2018 was already promising to be quite a year.
Then this.
Since we were teenagers we haven't seen a time where neither of us were working - let alone in a context like this.
And truth be told it's not as dire as it looks on the surface. I got a decent enough package that includes health care for a year. We're hoping that surgery can happen in that window, if in fact that's the final recommendation. Securing that coverage was most important, and having it in place takes most of the thought numbing, free-fall fear out of the situation.
As for the rest, I have since fall been very focused on becoming the artist that I actually am. I've never given myself permission to make creativity the center of my life -- until this year. This is a cool development, but cooler still is that I have my first few projects actually going in the studio - art installations, logos, merch and web design. Good stuff, important work and a great learning experience.
So I've been going day and night for a while. Work my 10-hour weekday, grab a quick bite, head to the studio and crank until 2:00 or 3:00 in the morning. Every day. Weekends are for fast paced work, top to bottom, as much as can be squeezed in. I've been doing this because, A) I had a feeling my current situation wasn't looking promising, and B) I really, really wanted to build an off-ramp out of my corporate gig and into my dream work.
Now, in every way, I'm just beat. Generally speaking I'm pretty solid on stamina, but that has a limit. The last couple weeks have been trying, and still I kept pushing, pushing.
When my Seattle boss called for an in-person meeting in Spokane on a Friday at the end of the pay period, I had a funny feeling.
But I walked out of there thinking, "All right. Full time on real design, then."
Back to Mrs. Phish... She is a terrific artist, just at the start of that journey. She enjoys the hell out of watercolor and illustration. That point threads into a broader idea that we could become a super cool mom and pop design firm. Mrs. Phish has decades of managerial and operational knowledge, and I bring the ethereal corporate voodoo like consulting, strategy, systems architecture -- and a full slate of digital design skills. Together we have a pretty badass range of capability; we're curious about where that can take us. Relentless focus on business and customer experience are what we're all about, and that provides some market cachet when put next to many self satisfied, snooty design firms in the newly hip Spokane.
Even in this crazy corridor of time when all seems dark, uncertain, we find ourselves wondering if we're on the cusp of real freedom. Are we closer than ever to a future that we prefer, that is healthy, that gives us more time and still provides well? I hope.
Funny background detail... Before all of this we had decided to buy a dog. In 32 years we've had lots of cats but never a dog. We select the puppy on December 22, and we will pick him up on our return from the annual AZ Christmas trip January 4th. Today we went to meet all the puppies from whom we'll be choosing -- therapeutic in its own right -- and it felt like a happy foreshadowing of a 2018 that brings nothing but new.
Thank you for the kindness, prayers and encouragement. I so value my friends here.
Onward and upward.